I’ve been struggling for topics to blog about this week, and I know it’s because I have so much on my mind. Specifically, a lot of different people on my mind in addition to those already on my mind by default. Neurotic much?
I’ve covered TMI this week, but there’s a whole other set of “things you just don’t talk about” as a general social rule of thumb. You wouldn’t just bring up in conversation, as a change of topic, things like “I suffer from a psychological disorder and I’m scared” or “I was sexually abused by a neighbor when I was a child” or “I’m unable to conceive and I am devastated.” Yet we all know some of these people. Some of us are one of these people.
It’s not common place to talk openly in a serious manner about unfaithfulness or life-ruining financial debt or domestic abuse or alcoholism over burgers and fries. Or over Twitter, even. Those conversations are most often private and limited to privy’d ears or eyes. For celebrities maybe it’s okay now, but for the everyday people in my everyday life there are things you just don’t talk about. You don’t talk about things because there’s a risk, as there’s a risk to everything, that you will end up hurting more.
And so it’s hard to bring up, in passing, that there’s a lump somewhere on your body that is painful and terrifying. It’s not easy to brooch the subject of addictions or incest, yet we can all easily acknowledge that these things exist. Therapy can work wonders, but so can talking to a stranger who has the time. It doesn’t take a therapist to be able to just talk shit out sometimes.
Jumping off of yesterday’s blog about People I Know, a lot of people I know do confide in me and often. I listen, and I confide in them too sometimes. As much as I share of my life in many different outlets, there are actually things I just don’t talk about. I talk about a lot of things, but some are so deeply rooted in my neuroses I don’t ever bring it up. But I will eventually.
The good news is I’ll always have a topic to dish about. The bad news is that it’s damn exhausting.