Jun Dishes

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I’m a Crab

When it comes to astrology and signs of the zodiac I’m a believer, up to a point. I’m neither a horoscope checker nor do I base my decisions on the stars, but I do see enough common characteristics between people sharing the same sign to believe there’s some truth to it all.

For instance, I’m a Cancer.

“Cancers are maternal, domestic and love to nurture others.” – This is why I thrive and glow as a wife and a mother, and why I do find such a peace. It’s what I’ve always wanted and will never take for granted.

“Cancers wear their heart on their sleeve, which is just fine by them.” – This is why I write and tweet, because when your heart is out there on your sleeve it’s that much easier to share what your heart is actually made of both good and bad.

“Cancers are quick to retreat into their shells, and it can become a Herculean task to pry a Crab out of its secret hiding place.” – This is why I seem so far away sometimes. I have this ability to shut down emotionally, like there’s a switch on my chest attached directly to my heart that I can flick to “Off in case of an emergency.” Emergencies constitute times when someone I love is hurting deeply or I’m the one hurt very deeply, by someone I love. It’s the Cancer in me, and it’s the girl-who-wears-her-heart-out-on-her-sleeve in me. I shut down.

“Crabs can be rather vindictive.” – This is why I shut down, because I have to heal my heart from a very fresh wound and then protect myself so I can be as cold and calculating as I have to be to get myself in a better place. I can only help people I love when I am in a better place.

Cancer intuition is also a great help to them, especially in times of stress.” – This is why I get myself to a better place, every time, because my intuition has always guided me. It’s what my father encouraged me to follow while my mother’s world was black and white, but when I’m feeling lost and shaken? I cry. I cry and call out like a lost child in a maze. My intuition is good but unconditional love and wisdom from my father was gold.

I could go on, because I’m rarely without words, but I’m hoping this blog will serve as an answer to why I’ve been “so quiet” on social media platforms this last week. Sometimes I just need to shut down. And thank you, from the inside of my crab shell, to everyone who checked in on my “silence”.

Always dishing,

Jun
~ Cancer characteristics from Astrology.com

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