By Guest Blogger: Cathryn Shannon, lives in Massachusetts with her husband and three children. She went to the West Hartford Academy of Performing Arts and enjoys Community Theater with Valley Repertory Theater in Connecticut. Her latest work with the arts was her role in the short horror film The Earth Rejects Him.
I noticed my son Evan’s voice is changing, he is 12 and about as tall as me. Aidan is right around the corner bringing along a following. He is 11 and a hit with the girls and quite the comedian. Kiera is just beautiful inside and out. She has the kindest heart I have ever known and a good day for her is when everyone is happy.
I am going through something that is so beyond weird as a mother. I don’t want them to grow up but I am loving each new year. If I see someone post a picture or video of their cute baby taking over walking for the first time or climbing stairs I get all emotional because I remember what a huge deal that was. Then I remember the baby gates and fear and boo boo’s..I go back to loving that my children can make breakfast now with out my assistance.
Still, when my 8 year old daughter asked me today if she could have a cell phone I just about lost it. No. NO! I love that they all still hug, cuddle and ask to spend time alone with me. I love bike riding with them and cooking with them and any activity the will include me in because I have heard someday very soon…they will find me embarressing and annoying and not want to even hug me anymore. HUGE SAD FACE.
But as Evan pulls a Peter Brady Voice at the dinner table I also imagine him as the young man he is growing into and I like what I see. Aidan is hilarious and I imagine him to be the hardest one to tame but also the closest one to mom by his choice. My beautiful daughter who has already at 8 had to deal with bullies and is the sweetest soul you will ever meet will sadly have to learn to grow tougher skin. People are jealous and can be cruel. And you don’t need a phone to fit in. Not with those girls anyway.
It is truely an amazing thing to be a parent. I remember being told by other parents when I was pregnant with Evan that I would never know such love after this. It is more than what you feel for your family, husband, wife, partner..this is without thought lay down and die for you love.
Those other parents forgot to mention the ever lasting fear that comes with that love. Your own imagination can be your worst enemy. The news is now something you turn off.
It’s very hard for a child to grow up into an adult as we can all remember. I was just never prepared to see it from my parents’ eyes. It sure is the same as we will tell them, but it’s also very differant as they will try to tell us. No one is lying.