I didn’t make that up, and I’d never take credit, but that’s the Twitter hashtag Helen went down in flames in last night. Now that Helen’s out of the Big Brother 15 house and gone to Juryville, I can officially say that I’m smug about it. Just like when I was glad neither Jordan nor Dan won their second seasons because if there’s ever a two-time winner of BB, I want it to be me. Just like I want to be the only Korean to have won Big Brother. Yul’s got Survivor and Big Brother is mine. There I said it, all in one blog. How selfish of me.
Despite it being 10 years since I won my season I still care very much about my experience and the subsequent years as a fan of the show. My mother, who’s never watched much of Big Brother since my win, has been watching this season. Because of Helen, and because Helen’s Korean. I wouldn’t be writing this blog if Helen wasn’t Korean, really, but that’s my prerogative.
“She’s not pretty face but not ugly face.”
This is what my mother said about Helen from the start, and it sounds fucked up but this is considered a mild compliment in Korean terms. Once my mother knew everything else about you, she always gave an impression of your looks. Koreans of my mother’s generation were big on backhanded compliments not to be mean, but to keep it real. I’ve probably inherited lots of that, evolved into snark.
So my mother knows Helen’s gone now even if she doesn’t know much else. Rice jokes aside she won’t be watching BB anymore now that Helen’s gone. It’s not reverse racism or right or wrong, it’s just reality. My mother would rather watch Korean dramas, k-dramas, which are basically soap operas with storylines around sex and/or social class struggle and/or gangs and/or the Korean War and more. I want to get back into watching k-dramas, actually, when I have the time never.
I won’t go back to watching this Big Brother 15 season. It’s been easier than I thought…dropping BB15. I thought I’d go into dramatic withdrawal and itch to follow again, but I haven’t. Good for me.
So from what I remember…
I’ll remember Helen as being a cryer and sometimes fake cryer, and her cheerleading and nail parties, and “everyone loves moms” bullshit. I don’t love all moms and neither should anyone else. Some moms suck.
I really liked Helen for not being botoxed or hair-extensioned or otherwise trashy. I hope none of this season’s bullshit messes with her career or personal life. I hope she wears her #STFUHelen badge of hashtag honor proudly, despite her spasms and shouting.
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