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A Different Kind of Suicide

With so many shocking celebrity suicide in the headlines this year already, the news of Ariel Castro hanging himself a month into his forever life sentence was different. My first instinct wasn’t to feel sad or bad for Castro or his family, and friends if he had any. My first thought went to Amanda Berry and Gina DeJesus and Michelle Knight.

Wishing someone like Castro dead for ten years, and then Castro ultimately hanging himself has to be gratifying. I don’t dare assume what feelings Amanda and Gina and Michelle maybe grappling with this morning, but I can imagine. As a victim of sexual abuse myself it’s sick that I’m thankful my experience was nothing close to what Castro unleashed on the three women. I cringe imagining what the women went through for 10 years of their life compared to what I went through for 20 minutes of my childhood. I’m happy for them that Castro is gone even if they don’t need me to be happy for them. I just am.

Putting away bad guys for sex offenses has come a long way since I was seven years old, and I believe that I could heal faster if my predator had killed himself. There. I said it. Instead, the person who abused me ended up in jail but back on the streets after a few years. He found me again. I didn’t know who to blame when I was a child, but I know now that the whole system failed me at the time. It was the early 80s. Fast forward thirty years…I believe the system is better.

Still, I’m happy Castro is gone from this earth for good. There’s a daughter that Castro has left behind and I can’t begin to wrap my head around what this means for her. A child should never have to hear their parent is dead, or that it’s something some people are celebrating. I hope for her that she is surrounded by love and understanding and patience, and I wish for her strength later when she knows more about this all.

Always dishing,

Jun

 

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14 comments

  • Debbie Peterson on September 4, 2013 at 2:16 pm said:

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    Thank you Jun for relaying what all of Cleveland is saying this morning. It was front page news and I could almost hear the cheering. I only pray that these young women and the child can move on a bit happier today knowing that they will never have to see or hear anything about that devil again. I know I’m glad.

  • This was too easy for him . I know a lot of people are happy ,but I feel that he got off too easy .If he had suffered just a tenth of what the survivors did ,it still wouldn’t be enough .

  • I have always felt as if Death was too easy on someone this evil!. They need to be made to do hard life sentences, where they have no privileges and are made to do laborious jobs. Death penalty is a cheaper easy way to deal with them, but it does not punish them. IMO

  • I am glad he is gone. His cowardice in choosing suicide reinforces what a despicable human he was. He thought nothing of imprisoning and torturing those young girls for a decade, but he was unable to tolerate the thought of his own imprisonment in far easier circumstances than that of his victims. He was a selfish piece of human garbage and the world is a better place without him in it.

  • Anonymous on September 4, 2013 at 7:59 pm said:

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    Jun. How ironic that Castro could not endure the pain of imprisonment for only a few months, compared to the pain he inflicted on his three victims for 10 years. Just Jack

  • Jesstears on September 5, 2013 at 9:35 pm said:

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    I have a feeling that Castro didn’t hang himself, himself. Here’s someone who was fighting to stay a live and thus hangs himself? And not only that, he hangs himself after being off suicide watch?

  • OK..I’m recanting what I said..So this idiot didn’t want someone taking his life..he was going to do it himself. But I’m sure he doesn’t realized that he has done the world a favor.

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