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I Did an Interview on the Phone Yesterday

I did an interview on the phone yesterday, with Belgian press, and it’s not the first phone interview I’ve ever given…

But I sit here doubting myself the day after. It’s not anyone’s fault, and it’s certainly not something my interviewer did or said. It’s just me being my own worst critic despite sounding like the rant of a crazy lady.

Or, as someone put it perfectly…

 

oddest

 

 

 

I do put the oddest pressure on myself.

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During yesterday’s interview I was asked about my birth and how I got to New York and how I got to Belgium. How I got on Big Brother, and how it changed my life if it did at all, and deeper and more personal questions even into finances. As usual I tried to answer the questions in 140 characters or less, like a tweet, and always candidly just as brutally.

In Europe, and so in Belgium, there’s less censorship and therefore more digging into subjects we don’t talk openly about in the U.S. It’s a part of why I love it here. It’s my kind of TMI.

Still, after the interview I’m left wondering why it never seems enough just to say I’m a stay-at-home mother, whether here or in the states.

Yes, I was born in Korea and separated from my parents for years until I was reunited with them in America. I was raised in New York City, and lived there and I worked on Wall Street and won Big Brother. I’ve loved and lost. I left it all behind for love and to start a family in a new country, like my parents did for me so many years ago except with no separation. My website runs off of donations from readers like you. I run it from home from home, and I sometimes freelance for writing projects. Mostly I edit one big project close to my heart. I love that this country runs at a pace at which I can do all of this. I love my husband and how hard he works, and I love my son and how he blooms every day.

Noah’s new obsession with “brush!” is convenient and exceptional. His 12 teeth are brushed twice a day. It’s a wonder.

 

Brush

 

I’m a stay-at-home mom. I don’t take it for granted. I take nothing for granted.

That’s my story and I’m sticking to it. The story isn’t over. There’s no The End yet…

That’s the best part.

Always dishing,

Jun

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14 comments

  • You have a beautiful life. I find myself amazed by your good fortune and opportunity life has offered you.

    • Thank you so much for the kind words. I’m blessed. I’m grateful for all the positive outpouring despite occasional hiccups :)

  • Huh. What do you wish you’d done differently? Sometimes ones own life seems mundane, but to others may seem surreal. You never know what will strike a chord resulting in an epiphany. Or not. You did just fine.

  • Anonymous on October 22, 2013 at 3:55 pm said:

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    That’s Belgium!!!

    I’m born here, mother is Spanish/dad is Cabo Verdian, so Southern as hell, but raised “the Belgian” way even though I’m still foreigner to most of the nitwits out here. If you’re caucasian and you’re a housewife, everything seems to be normal no questions asked, but when you’re an expat (oh sorry, Korean-Belgian 😉 and you stay home? hhhhmmmm, they’ll easily call you lazy and/or freeloader.

    That’s why I’ve been growing hatred against this country…most of the time people are friendly to your face, but will not hesitate to stab you in the back. Me I’d rather get out of here, and once the oppertunity comes along I’m off.

    Just to say, don’t love it too much, ’cause IT WILL come around and bite you in the ass…

    groetjes Freddy

    • Ah Freddy. I know where you’re coming from, but not completely. I can imagine but it’s your personal experience. The stories you share with us stay with me even after you leave. Just know that Noah thinks you’re cool.

      Hang in there until you can be off. I’ll be so happy for you! :)

  • vivi howe on October 22, 2013 at 5:40 pm said:

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    To look at everything in a positive way makes live so much easier to live. Your lemonade has a lot of sugar and your little man with a healthy dose of humour and confidence will grow up a happy, self assured kid.

  • I personally think being a stay-at-home mother is the hardest job. I have never had children so I am only guessing. However, watching friends raise their beloved, and comparing it to my 40-hour week, I believe that I have it much easier. For every 30 days I work, I earn vacation and sick time. A stay-at-home mother does not have the luxury of calling in sick. I get to leave my office at 5pm fully checking out until 8am the next day. A stay-at-home mother is 24/7. In my humble opinion, stay-at-home mothers are amazing and should be held in the highest of praise, always! I could not do what you do, not even for one week.

    • I love it sooooooo much but it’s soooooooo draining. I give it everything and I see it come back in all that Noah does and says. If I had to compare it to when I worked in banking? I couldn’t. :)

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